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Comment Hmmm..? [17 Feb 2009|05:40pm] OOPSIES! I didn't post for like, 3/4 a year again. Dang. I'm so bad at this. And I keep lamenting to myself about how I can't remember what I do on a day-to-day basis, and how I forget everything...so I really need to get into the habit of writing again. Even more importantly, or at least equally important, I definitely need to be writing down all my dreams!!! I've had some pretty crazy ones since I stopped writing them down. But that's my other livejournal account. Perhaps I will do that now... Anyway, so, its the spring semester of my senior year in college! WOW!!! It's almost over. I don't know how to feel about it. Scared, of course. But trying not to think about it. Maybe I'll be able to go Europe with Ashley over the summer!!! I hope her parents say okay. I hope it's like, 3 weeks. Then, I also hope I go to Disney World. Then, I won't have to find a job til later in the year! YAY! Last night, Jim and I did some filming after I made some spaghetti and chickens. He can't light a cigarette. Haha it's so funny. He had no idea what the heck he was doing. But, apparently, I have no idea what I'm doing when it comes to making my camera MANUAL FOCUS instead of AUTO FOCUS!!! UGH so frustrating. Then Jim and I watched some hip hop on my cock, and it was THE GROSSEST PORN that we've seen so far. Very disgusting black women and equally disgusting black men then joined them. *shudder*. God. Eew. We also ate some chocolates (that my baby Kevin sent to me for Valentine's day!!!) and cereals. Then, I went to bed and lied there for too long, because I didn't wake up until 1:15 PM. I skipped class yesterday, too, so it makes me feel extra bad. So...I'm totally in my Greek and Roman Mythology class right now. It's SO BORING. Have about an hour left, or, at least, an hour until I need to leave to go to my Electronic Media screening. I think we are watching TV tonight, which is too bad, because I like to play gameboy. Well, I forgot my gameboy anyway. Then, later tonight...I'll probably want to hang with Jim again. Hehe. Well, I suppose I'll go and maybe pay attention now.

Comment WOAH [21 May 2008|07:29pm] [ mood | excited ] BAHHH I like totally forgot about my livejournal. I should print out all the entries before something happens to livejournal or my account and I lose all these precious thoughts and daily logs are lost forever. Note to self - buy printer paper. I should start writing again. Definitely. I should probably get another account, though, just to start fresh. Meh. Maybe not. So, just for the record, I'm sitting on my butt in my new apartment. I'm about to hit up dinner with Meghan, Abby, Paige, and her mum. Then...INDIANA JONES!!! Then...SIX FLAGS!!! Ahem. I shall go now. ~A

1 Comment GAR [09 Oct 2006|10:19pm] [ mood | exhausted ] [ music | Somebody's Watching Me - Rockwell ] So...I guess I suck at writing in this. I guess knowing that its easily accessable on the web is kinda...scary. So yeah I'm still at school. Having lots of fun --- made wonderful new friends, and (for the most part) mantaining the old ones. Not doing as well as I would like in classes, however...ah well, I'll pick it up. I get to go to center court soon, then, I it's Random Harvest with David (...and Dan). Yeahhhh I have to take my laundry out of the washer. But I'll do it later. Okay, I guess that's all. I'm exhausted. I was at the libary from 3-7, then 930-6am. hahaha. Better have paid off...Okay. that is all. GOODBYE!!!

Comment [29 Aug 2006|01:33pm] [ mood | blank ] [ music | cant explain - the who ] IM BACK AT SCHOOOL!!! HUZZAHHHH!!!! oh, its ever so nice. i love my friends, i love my school. but class starts tomrrow, so, im pretty nervous about how thats going to turn out....blah. okay, thats all.

Comment [24 Aug 2006|02:17am] i should have just said no. none of that, was ever worth any of this.

Comment tehehee. [10 Jul 2006|10:24am] [ mood | cold ] [ music | rice is nice - lemonpipers ] Well ive been totally lazy when it comes to writing in this thing. but i have to make sure i do it periodically so i can look back years from now and read it and say, "wow...i remember that. that was so long ago." kinda like how i do now with my posts from 2 years ago =9....anywho. i dunno, not much is happening. its summer. and its boring. although, im very happy about seeing my greggie so often. he likes my company even if we are just sitting around doing absolutely nothing. he is incredibly honest with me and i can share anything with him. so even though he doesnt read this...thank you, greg =D...and obviously, my ashley makes my life so wonderful. you know laughter is the best medicine. and i guess its true...so ashley basically saved my life. well, if thats the case...i guess shes been saving my life since 7th grade. i would be dead without her. okay, with that said... JULY!!! july is awesome. 4th of july is one of my favorite holidays, and then theres my birthday, too! went to the fireworks with ash, greg, and mel...took forever but we finally got to see them. and someone got stabbed at sawdust days. and they wouldnt sell us tickets. its like hell. being trapped at a dirty amusement park and not being able to ride any of the rides. crazy. then we couldnt find our car on the way back...hahahah...i went to a brewer game with rob, zak, and sam....which was totally fun. it was soooo hot. but i could handle it. hehe...also, the metzigs parked right behind us!!! so i got to see tyler and jordan. they are so big. anyways. brewers won, so that was sweet. i fell asleep on the ride back. ash and jackie and i went to the omro fireworks on the 4th. it was excellent. then we went to perkins to see tyler the everything man...ahhaha oh greg. he took a picture of him....so funny. and then obviously, i saw PIRATES!!! with jimmy. we ate at perkins then too. hahaha...i got an omelette. jimmy always thinks i hate him and that im making fun of him. if he doesnt stop saying that, its going to be true!!! heheh...met ash and greg and mel at the show. gosh that movie was awesome. then on saturday i had to play volleyball at riponfest with kaitlynn. that was awesome. i got some sun, at least! we did lose every game we played, however...haha...i suck. i have no talent anymore. then, that night, chelsea and michelle and i went to this hudsons vip party thing, and it was lame because it was just like appetizers. they brought around a tray with like cups of french fries in it. LAME. so we needed dessert...and decided melting pot was the place to go. so we did that and it was delicious. after, we found out there was a party at joel's apartment (YAY)...so i told my mom i was sleeping over at chelseas and we went over there. it was soooo much fun...everyone there was really nice. it was the best start to any birthday of my entire life. then we went back to chelseas and started mulan....we all fell asleep before it was done though. BIRTHDAY!!! YAY! so i left chelseas early in the morning, and really just kinda sat around until ashley came at like 1230. we just kinda sat around until ANIA arrived!!!! we ate some food then went in the pool. it was the most beautiful day ever. it was supposed to rain and it never did, it was warm and sunny all day. brittney then came and swam with us...mikey and mel came and watched the world cup. then my NEIGHBOR ALEX whom i missed so much came over with a vegan cake for me!!!! he is way too adorable. i want to make him a cake in return. lets see who else was there....robbie came, oh, greg was there obviously...and stephanie. we swam for quite a while, then started a bonfire. alex jacob ania my bro and i played spud for a bit, then we all went inside to have ice cream cake!! wooooo hoooo!!! we also played spin the bottle, highfive/eyesex version. that didnt last long. played some ping pong, nintendo, etc. etc. until i was pooped and made everyone leave. i was upset that mish and chels couldnt make it...as well as kaitlynn and kevin. but i had fun with my excellent friends. thanks everyone for coming and making it the best birthday ever!!!! =D now... so now im nannying. ugh. hate hate hate. this kid has been watching tv all morning and doesnt want to do ANYTHING!!!! so hopefully i will take them to see pirates this afternoon...because i totally wanna see it again 0=D...hehe....ohhhh jack sparrow. sooo sexy sexy. then tonight its pilates with my greggie. and i think im just gonna go home after that...im kinda tired and want to sort through my drawers and do some nice relaxing pokemon card sorting. ohhh yeah and i have to call kaitlynn---we wanna do a full spa treatment this week sometime. im waiting for a call from mrs danielson so i can run by the movie with her...i REALLY wanna go. it makes my life so much easier if the kids just sit there and watch the show. hahaha. then i dont have to do anything. its like, really cold today. wtf. yogi comes this week, so im really excited!!!!! at least i have something to look forward to. wow, school really does start pretty soon. my birthday marks like the halfway mark of summer. and since the rest of my weekends are 'booked' for the rest of the summer, i consider it the end!!!!! im not doing so hot on my diet either. im kinda on and off it. mrs danielson just called and said i needed to eat the brownies in the fridge because she made them for me...ahhhh that itsnt helping! haha. ahh well. when i get on a schedule at school this weight loss thing will be easier. okay im just gonna go now. and eat those brownies (sigh)....goodbye.

Comment wheee!!!! [24 Jun 2006|01:05am] [ mood | tired ] [ music | Disney - Be Prepared ] Well so i guess I'll write about last weekend now..... On Friday, Went to Marble Park beach with Kaitlynn and the boys. They really liked it!!! I'm glad, because that will give me a chance to tan. We dug a huge hole, and KK and I made boobs in the sand. And some old guy said "thats quite the sculpture you ladies have!" and I'm like leave us alone weirdo. So then Friday night...Went to Fratellos with me Ashley, which was really fun, because it was nice and warm and the band was playing and it was fabulous. We then drove around for like hours before going to see Nacho Libre. We called Cody and Cory, and Cody suggested we pick some random guys up off the street "Get in the car, bitch!". Then I called Kevin H, and he said he was walking home from work, so we drove by and talked to him for a few minutes. It's always awkward between him and I. Then we went to the moooovie. It was pretty funny!!! Then we dispersed, and, I then realized that i didn't have a curfew, and it was like 11:30, so im like holy crap this is stupid, so i called Mikey and he met me at staples and we went to my house. We basically just lied under the stars talking for hours. Mikey is a good friend. On Saturday, lounged about until like maybe 4:30 when Greggie was ready to hang out with me. He picked me up and we went to Liz's graduation party (I ate some of their food ahha), then to the mall!!! We tried on lots of stuff and bought a few things, so overall it was successful. Then, we had dinner at China buffet (YAY!!!), and head over to Walmart to buy some sexy food!!! We got strawberries, bakers chocolate, whip cream, and cookie dough. Then we head to the porn store on Jackson. It was excellent...so many different dildos and videos to choose from!! Hahaha...I found a dildo that i liked, but, it was too expensive. The video titles were hilarious. There was also a sale on lingerie, and I really wanted this gold top that had zippers for your nipples (LMFAO)...but i didn't have cash. oh well. next time. So then we went to my house, and decided we should go skinny dipping!!! So, we did. Then, we made a webcam video to If I Had a Million Dollars. That was a lot of fun...it turned out really cute. We are trying to get on GoogleIdol. Then, we watched some gay porn and ate our delicious desserts. It was great! The police video was so funny. We then played some Smash Bros (I mainly won!! hehe), and went to bed!!! Got about 2 hours, because we both had to wake up early the next day. I love Greg. On Sunday, Greg left for work and I left for the Brewer game with Ashley. It rained the whole way down, which sucked. We pulled in to park, and it turns out Jimmy and some other friends had parked like right behind us!!! So they let us hang under their tent thingie, and I had a few bites of jimmy's hamburger. We then went inside to watch the game and got a free bobblehead. Ash and I got hotdogs (YES!!!!) and I got peanuts, of course. Can't go to a baseball game without any peanuts. We had a lot of fun and made a lot of jokes. Robbie called me at some point, and jimmy called to say he was in the party section, hahaha. Brewers won with a homerun at the last minute (SWEET), and then we drove home. Ash paid for some beef jerky for me for the ride home. I dropped Ash off into the tornado near her house (HAHA), then...I don't remember. Don't hurt me. I wonder what I did Sunday night...hmmm. I'll write about this weekend later! haha

Comment YESSS [20 Jun 2006|12:04pm] [ mood | fat ] [ music | river of dreams - billy joel ] okay so! man, i have a lot to write about.....i dont think im going to get it done right now. i really wanted to write about my times with ashley and my weekend with greg!!!! but it would take a while...so i think im gonna do it later. right now im babysitting and we are trying to decide what to do. nicky wants to go to marble park but jack usually doesnt unless he has a friend. and in that case, i have to entertain nicky. it isnt even all that warm out...its cloudy, too. dangit. and i cant stop eating these fig newtons. haha. i need to eat healthier.....tonight hopefully ill write about my weekend...dunno if ill have time though, because im going to watch kevin play then hopefully we are hanging out afterwards. most likely with steiner and some other guys...haha. meh. okay, ill write later!

Comment gahhhhh [13 Jun 2006|08:14am] [ mood | blah ] [ music | in your wildest dreams - moody blues ] okay so im nannying at the danielsons currently. its my second day. um the boys are nice i guess, nicky is 6 so hes slightly crazy.....but whatever. i feel like im not entertaining them enough...but like....im really not sure what to do you know? i mean mac is 13 and jack is 11.....they are at the age where its not cool to like..chill...i dunno, they wanna do their own things im sure. i want to take them to see cars today, because greg said that he would meet me there and see it with me....but i didnt get to talk to lisa this morning and yesterday it didnt seem like they wanted to go. ughhhh so knowing my luck recently, it probably wont work out and we'll have to go mini golfing instead. which i mean is fine, but first of all i want to see greg and second of all im still in a bit of pain from my stupid wisdom teeth surgery. ughhhh that is so lame. everyone else is fine when they get their wisdom teeth out, but no, not me, i have to feel the effects for weeks. AWESOME. so last night i went to fratellos with ash and then to target, then to melanies bonfire. despite my pain it was a pretty fun time. i am absolutely OBSESSED with looking at home made music videos online, and im absolutely in love with this one kid who lives in england....gorgeous child. i cant wait to make my next video. you know what else i realized is while im babysitting, no one is forcing me to eat. this is a great opportunity to...um, not eat. lol. i never thought it would be so hard to lose 20 pounds. this weekend i am home alone, yay!!!! so ill probably rent some porn with greg. hahaha. yahhhh im such a rebel like that. i wonder if anyone reads this. that would be not cool if anyone actually did. hopefully ill get to hang out with christopher soon, and hopefully ill get to see kevinh again. i like those boys. yogi is FINALLY back in st louis, meaning she has internet, thank GOD. heheheh. love my yogies. i cant wait to drive down to stl to see her and kyle!!!! ughhhhh its gonna be AWEEESOMEEEEE..... gotta plan a date for that though. gotta get on that soon, too...!!!! alright well, nothing else to say really, nothing that new. gosh i just hope that i can see cars today. oh please. oh please oh please. must see greg. children driving me crazy. gahhhhh.

Comment ...... [06 Jun 2006|01:34am] [ mood | lonely ] [ music | lifehouse - love of a lifetime ] happy d-day to me...... sorry about not writing for so long. been busy/lazy. been reading a book on time travel. and you know, it really gets you thinking. if i, someday, am able to travel to the past....i know exactly where i would go first. this day, two years ago. sixpence put it best when she said "tonight, it seems like ages ago". it was ages ago. i barely remember. but the things i do remember... it was always sunny, he always smelt nice. we listened to the beatles constantly. i cant feel the kisses on my forehead anymore. so im not even sure if they were real. i can hear the "i love you, sweetie", only because i heard it so many times, and force myself to repeat it again and again in my head. i wish i didnt do that. what else can i say, you know? so i suppose i will spend d-day by myself. making a toast to a love that's dead.

Comment LAKSJDLFKJAS!! [02 May 2006|03:15pm] [ mood | anxious ] [ music | i could never be your woman - white town ] AHHHHH finals approaching... its reading week, and i have bio and spanish on thursday. chemistries on monday and tuesday. im so nervous about all of them (except spanish)...im even afraid of what i got on my archaeology final. it was pretty hard...dangit..... im such a failure. i had a dream about ben last night....his appearance was brief, and he didnt talk to me at all...wait...THAT WASNT A DREAM!!!! LOL XD no, kidding: i walked past pat's table at lunch, and said excuse me, let me just squeeze by here....and they all gave me death glares. i smiled, and laughed, and said, brrr! is it cold in here, or is it just me? i recall ben smiling at me. not a very important dream. but meh. noteable. last weekend was really fun. friday was finalfriday, and i painted faces....i painted some kids hand in some band...and he absolutely loved it. all it was was "1888"...whateva, danny, of the city drive!! then we saw wedding crashers, went to see michael ian black, then watched wizard of oz synched to dark side of the moon. that was SWEET. ben folds came saturday, and he was excellent. i had 5 shots of vodka and did not feel drunk at all. so that was dumb. no more drinking. but i met up with chris, leon, and clint at ben folds while my drunk friends wandered away somewhere....clint just does not like me for some reason...he really ignored me. chris at least acknowledged me...and leon is really nice. he so cool. so then the concert was over and joy and i met jason at bears den. we met up with heidi, krissa, jay, neema, and jackie. they all came up to k3, and we danced and chilled in joys room for a while. that was fun. then joy had to go visit vir, so, the rest of us (including meghan) went up to beau 3. i hoped i wouldnt see francisco...we hung out in krissa and heidis room for a while, and i got yelled at by mario for playing the guitar too loud, apparently....then someone told me joy was sleepin in clints bed, and im like what! she was supposed to hang out with us! so i go into their room, and realize they have a SNES!!!! i played super mario world with leon until we beat the game....he was so impressed by my skills! chris called me a boy...but whatever. they are all just jealous of my awesome skills. but then, francisco came in...he was nice, and we were getting along fine. after everyone went to bed he and i decided to try and beat the game the long way. we played until 4, until he said "well i guess you arent going back to koenig tonight....seeing as though its rainign and cold and 4 in the morning..." so im like haha okay...so we go to bed....he told me he cared about me, and that i shouldnt be sad about anything...he said he didnt want to hurt me. well....i thought that was funny, because, he is hurting me!!! i think at this point it might be the last sleepover we have...which is sad. but at least we arent awkward anymore, because of our fight the other night.... so now im at the library studying bio. i think im doing pretty good on time. im writing on here as a break. i have a bit more reading to do....then, ill go over the slides again, and make notecards. then ill probably take a look at the lectures i dont really understand or whatever. ill probably skim through the notes again...then call it a night. MOONLIGHT BRUNCH TONIGHT!!!!! ... tomorrow, ill look over the answers to the previous problem sets and exams. i really want to do well on this test.... im hungry. i had a tiramisu chocolate chip muffin and a banana for breakfast around 11. it was DELICIOUS. YUM. um, i guess ill probably go get some subway pretty soon....because moonlight brunch is at 10. which is pretty late i guess. meh. I CANNOT WAIT until summer. its goign to be so much fun...i have so much planned. and by fall, when i come back to school...i am going to be hott and sexy. and my hair will be long, finally. maybe. bahhh!!!!! im really sad to have to leave my friends in a week. i love them so much, and i would be dead without them. like probably literally. okay, thats enough for now i guess!!!!!!

Comment ... [28 Apr 2006|03:42am] [ mood | crushed ] [ music | amsterdam - coldplay ] i had a pretty bad night. why does everything have to be about sex? why cant i be with someone that i care about because of something stupid like sex? something just seems fishy.... his argument doesnt really hold together very well. some piece of of the puzzle is missing. but it doesnt matter. and i proceed to move on from two men in one month. and there was a fire alarm on top of everything. what a bad night.

Comment UGH!!! [18 Apr 2006|08:36pm] [ mood | confused ] [ music | sexy sadie - beatles ] ugh well. i dont think francisco really likes me anymore.... we talked about dating, and i guess we came to the consensus that its a bad idea...well, actually, he came to that conclusion, not i. hes afraid of getting hurt, he isnt good enough for me, summer is coming, he doesnt know what he wants....sounds a little familiar. he doesnt call anymore, and has no desire to see me like he used to. i didnt want to have to get over TWO guys in 2 weeks....bummer. *sigh* i figured it was too good to be true anyways. he was WAY too good to me...maybe it was a dream???? well, i should ask him about it for sure. figure out where i stand, etc. etc... parents are here, taking me out to dinner again tonight....im starving, where are they?!?!all i had today was a banana, coffee, and couple of big pieces of cookie cake =D well ive become closer to carlos recently, which is nice...he gives me advice on these things, and he asks me for it too. so thats pretty cool. its good we are living in the same building next year. i cant believe summer is so soon....i finished packing up a bunch of crap i just dont need. and let me tell you that losing weight is MUCH harder than you would think. looks like it wont happen before summer....although it will happen during summer, because im goign to be swimming all the time and my mom will make sure i watch what the heck i am eating. speaking of eating...WHERE ARE THEY?!?! oh, i just called them, they are coming in a half hour. wtf. i guess im going to roam the floor for some activity.... bye. ill let you know when i figure out this whole francisco thing. im going to ask him about it soon... <3 ali

Comment [11 Apr 2006|01:45pm] [ mood | calm ] [ music | Picasso's Last Words (Drink to Me) - Paul McCartney ] lakjesoijalkjdsklj!!!!!!! i have to start studying for chem now... i really would like to pass, please.... boohooo...... but its nice that theres no lab this week, and no chem quiz...so i can just study study study. i did really shitty on the last bio test. im pissed. so basically there is no way i can get an A....T_T im a sad girl because of that. but i think im going to do some extra credit lab for archaeology...in which i get to clean pot sherds and shit like that. im excited...so i should probably email the professor about it now. i met with my advisor yesterday and she told me that i dont need to take orgo to take the next bio class, which is pretty good news i suppose. so i wont take chemistry next semester. no matter what my parents say, im just not going to. so im pretty excited about that! im going to the library in like an hour, then back here for dinner, then back to the library. i cant believe school is almost over... then its summer...i have mixed feelings about how summer is going to be. i mean i do have to work...and i wont see ben at all (thats going to be weird..), but ill have some of my friends and ill go swimming and lose a bunch of weight and grow my hair long and pretty. and, disneyworld and london, hopefully. so we'll see how this goes. but first, i have to worry about finals...oh boy...X____X also francisco broke my id card last night, so i have to get a new one, the bastard...>_< bye!! showertime!

Comment so... [09 Apr 2006|12:50am] [ mood | melancholy ] [ music | interpol - slow hands ] so...well i figured i should write, because i like to call what happened grounds for a 'milestone' post. so ben and i broke up april 4th... im not really sure what else to write in this post. ill never forget how it feels, how it happened... but this time it's for good. i cant believe he was such a big part of my life, for the past 2 years... its a very odd feeling to know i wont see him anymore. he'll never call me sweetie again, never take me out to dinner. he'll never tuck me in on the leather couch, never hold my hand while he's driving. i'll never get another kiss, another hug, another whisper in my ear..."i love you, sweetie". he'll never look at me with that loving gaze i know so well, never again ask me if i want to cuddle. he'll remove the pictures of us together, all traces that we were ever in love. he'll forget. somewhere down the line, maybe he'll remember the things he said to me. maybe he'll think about all our plans for the future, maybe he'll wonder what i'm doing...i don't know. maybe not. but apparently, i wasnt worth it to him to keep what we had alive, even over distance. i wasn't worth the time or the effort. why should i want someone who isn't willing to go out of his way just to keep me? i was more than willing to do it. isn't that was love is...? so here i am, alone in love, once again. here i am, willing to give everything...to sacrifice my time, to put in effort, to TRY. because i love him. i can see myself years and years from now...wondering what happened to him, wondering why we weren't meant to be. still fighting my feelings...still in love with him. and he feels fine. how could he? this is what bothers me the most. how could he? how could he forget everything? how can he have no residual feelings? he dropped me like a hot potato. and he's doing fine. he's moving on with his life, and here i am, stuck in this vortex of memory, present, and what could have been. it all feels like a dream, like some story i read a long time ago, about a guy and girl who fell in love. it feels like i read about what they did, what they said to each other. just some vague idea of some romance, is all it feels like. i want to read the book again... --------------------------------- so i'm trying to move on. let me tell you about francisco. he's such a sweet guy, and he's absolutely head over heels for me. i know this because he told me! he told me he was "flat on his face" (and then proceeded to do a funny hitting-his-face-on-the-table motion). i told him likewise. because it's true, i do really like him. he does the nicest things for me. i have never met anyone like him in my life...one time, he came to the library just so i didnt have to walk home alone. another time, he stayed at the library all night with me while i studied for a midterm. he took me out to dinner twice, took me on top of umrath to show me a pretty nighttime view of the arch and downtown st louis, plays the piano and the guitar for me, and lets me wear his pants (haha they look pretty good on me, actually, and im wearing a pair right now). he's absolutely hilarious, also. we get along so well, sometimes we think we are the same person. we already have a plethora of inside jokes, and we haven't known each other all that long. he's very nice to everyone, and he loves his friends and family to death. he has his flaws...he does smoke (though not around me because he knows i dont like it)...i can't exactly take him home to my parents. he has a tattoo, dyed hair, peirced ears, and he doesnt exactly have any dress clothes. i mean, those things don't change who he is, but i know my parents wouldn't exactly approve. anyways, let me talk about last night. it was basically one of the best nights of my life. im not sure ive ever smiled as much as i did last night. so we had plans to go out to dinner downtown, and he called me, telling me he had tickets for carnaval, but he was giving it away because i was worth it. aww. so i go over to his place, and he tells me i look very cute, which is very nice. as we start walking to catch the gold line, he bends over and picks a yellow dafodil for me. awww! so i have my little yellow flower, and we get sidetracked and he plays some piano for me. he loves piano, he talked a lot about a russian composer whose music he would like to learn. he also played and sang some pretty modern songs for me. then we walked to the shuttle, and he helped some girl get her suitcase on the shuttle. we got to the metrolink, and he bought my ticket, and then the train came right away so we got on. he told me i had a very nice spanish accent, and asked me over and over again (in spanish, of course) to converse with him in spanish. i refused, but he liked the way i said helado. then he kissed my forehead, and told me that was a big step for him, because he was raised not to show public affection. so we get off a stop early apparently, and so we grabbed a map and walked. we walked right by the arch...its so pretty, i absolutely love it. then there was another bed of flowers, tulips this time, and i bent down to smell them. then he asked me which one i wanted. i couldnt decide, so he just picked the prettiest one. so now i have my yellow flower and my red flower in one hand, and the hand of the sweet guy that gave them to me in the other. we turned into the city a bit, and found the restaurant. Carmine's, was the name of it. so we walk in, and its SO NICE. i had no idea it was such an incredibly nice restaurant. i was very very taken by the fact that he wanted to take me some place so pretty and romantic. so we sat down at our table, and francisco holds his hand out on the table, and looks at me. "what?" i said. "tu mano, por favor," he said. im certain i was blushing like mad at this point. so i put my hand in his. the waiter came then with the menu, and i then realized how very expensive the food was!! i felt bad and yet very very happy at the same time. my filet minon was very expensive...and absolutely delicious. all throughout dinner, he told me how beautiful i was, and how lucky he felt to be walking around with me. and, various other nice things nice about myself...^_^ gosh, what a sweetie. so we order coffee, and the waiter brings out the dessert tray. we decided on the cheesecake, but there were different toppings. the waiter asked us which topping we wanted, and so i asked franzie which kind he wanted. he replied: "it doesn't matter! whatever you want. this is your night, and all of this is for you,". i was so...enamored by him at that point. how can a guy be so nice?!? i hope this isn't just courtship..i hope he's always this nice. i think he is. so we ate our chocolate/caramel cheesecake, he got the bill, and we headed out. we walked down to the arch, and it was VERY cold and VERY windy. so he held me as we walked. we sat, with our feet up on the arch, and looked up. it looks like you are on a path to the sky....it's very cool. we got up, and started heading back. as we were walking, he stops, and looks at me, and i say "what?". he replies: "come on, we have to go in the middle more". i say, "middle of what?". he says, "the arch, we need to get under the middle of the arch.". and i say, "what for?" and he grabs my hand and starts pulling me, and replies: "because i want to kiss you underneath it,". i probably would have fainted if it werent so cold and windy. so he pulls me by hand, and we try and decide when we are directly underneath. "this is good," he says, and he kisses me. so very romantic...something right out of a movie, that's for sure. he stops, and asks me if i ever have to orient myself and remind myself that the earth is spinning. i said, yes, like, right now...then he kissed me again. he then stops and said he always wondered how they got it to work in the movies, when the guy dips the girl and kisses her. i said i didnt know, and then he dips me and kisses me. okay, so now it's creepy. this guy is just too good to be true. we start walking again, and i realize when we are halfway to the metrolink stop that i dropped my flowers!! he then says, "wait here!" and he runs into grass, snagging flowers from 3 flowering trees. he brings them back in a little boquet and hands them to me. is this a dream? so we get back on the metrolink and head back. we had to wait a while for the shuttle, but it was fun, we entertained ourselves. absolutely nothing went wrong. everything was absolutely perfect. i couldn't thank him enough for such a wonderful night...i really hope he takes me out again sometime. ^___^... i can't believe my mix of emotions right now...what a mess. what a long post. haha. tonight was boring. ive been sitting here for honestly two hours. doing nothing but typing and making a font of my own language. *sigh* then, pltl at 10 in the morning...nooooo...i didnt look at the problem set and i have no idea what we are doing in class at all. @__@ tomorrow i guess should be relaxing...brunch, doing work, cleaning the room...etc, etc. that's all for now i suppose, until something else noteworthy happens.

Comment woah. [02 Apr 2006|09:06pm] [ mood | okay ] [ music | white shadows - coldplay ] holy crap, i havent written in sooooooo long!!! i feel bad. but like i seriously have time? freetime is a word that i dont really know the meaning of anymore. im always studying. ALWAYS. well, when im not studying, im either eating, sleeping, or at class. but you know, a lot of the time i look forward to coming to the library. i cant really explain it. maybe its because im here with friends and i feel like im getting stuff done. actually, truth be told, im at the library right now and im typing in my livejournal. so much for getting stuff done. actually, im waiting on my headphones to get started. im currently writing a spanish composition, and its quite the bitch. well, i mean, its not like its that long or hard (mind out of the gutter kids), but its just annoying to have to look words up and conjugate and insert accent marks and all that shit. but oh well...spanish is the easy stuff. next, its on to bio lab, then, chem lab regrade, then, finally, biology. we have a test on thursday and its currently sunday...and i feel like im not going to be prepared. theres so much material to go over its crazy. i just dont even know what im goign to do! well, tonight ill probably be here till around 4...so, i should get a good amount done. its 9 right now, thats a good 7 or so hours. so it was a pretty great weekend, friday was the shaz: it was the most beautiful day ever and it was the blacklight party. we flew kites (which neema broke?!?! jerk) and swang on the swings and just ran around like little kids. everyone was on the swamp, it was amazing!!!!! it was college at its best. so then we ate at panera bread (yoges and i) and got ready for the partayyy!!!! basically i danced with francisco the whole time...who happens to have "moves"...much fun. all of my good friends were there. i drew on myself with highlighter and it still hasnt come off (dirtyyyy)...so then we went to bears den and threw pepper all over the place, and neema krissa aubrey mark and joy were there. it was mucho fun. then i cant remember what happened. we probably just chilled for a while. oh yeah - there were a shit ton of people in my room. and kyle bu set my desktop to porn. and when i came to the library today it was still a vag being pounded by some guy, and i had to change the desktop with the screen open a sliver so no one would see it...im so embarassed. hahaha....so then saturday morning yogi and franzie and i had a threesome and it was pretty great. franzie dances pretty well in his magenta underwear (dont ask. or do, because its a pretty funny thing). yoges and i did RCO...well...kinda? i played one game of volleyball and that was it. what a slacka. but i was just too lazy... so then we went to outback with db and franz, and then tried to watch seven with carlos but we were falling asleep like mad. so lame --- it was spring forward and we lost an hour. and i had to go to pltl at 10 this morning. what a boner. then, we went to brunch! then, i slept till 4:37. then, there was a tornado and we had to go into the basement. so that was lame....kbu brought peanut butter and bread and chips and salsa and was like eating...i was jealous...then i showered and met jerry at center court. yum. now we are here at the libe, and im not getting my work done.......GAH!!!! we are goign to get a bagel soon, hopefully. so that was my weekend. it was very grand...but what is this? you must be confused. i really didnt say much of anything very depressed in the description of the last few days. this is so unlike me. so i guess ill say it now so i dont freak you guys out: im terrified of telling my parents i dont want to take orgo next semester...like terrified. because i know they are goign to make me. i just know it. and i hate chemistry, and im borderline failing both the general class and the lab class. and its not like im not trying : because i am. i really am trying...i just cant do it anymore. i hate it. i dont mind bio...i would take bio next semester if i didnt need orgo for it. i mean, i know i need orgo for a major but i dont think i need it to take the class? i dont know, ill have to ask. but anywho, time is drawing near where i have to bring it up to my parents. yeah and i went home to see the lourdes musical last weekend...what a disaster. my friends were happy to see me, but ben treated me like shit. like seriously, im his fucking girlfriend, and i flew all the way up for a day just to see him...and he really didnt care. im sick of putting so much effort into this relationship. ughhh i dont want to write about this. its retarded. but anywho, that's where i stand right now. school is bad and boys are bad. 'nuff said? i think so. this week is going to be a bitch, until thursday.....then its party central, baby. i just want to thank my best friends for being there for me, i luv youse guys. ^______^

Comment oi. [21 Jan 2006|05:11pm] [ mood | sad ] [ music | cant stand losing you - the police ] yikes....so its the new semester now...im back at school...i just want to go home @____@ i miss my friends, and i miss ben! i only got to see him a few times while i was home. but at least we had fun, i guess. he got me a computer game that restarts my computer everytime i try to open it, and a little sheep from new zealand. sheep are cute. so my semester is going to be REALLY hard...i am not looking forward to it. although spanish will be easy --- its BEGINNING spanish. hahha....so basically i dont need to study for that EVER. archaeology...im not sure if that will be hard or not. the professor is boring and the class drags on....i mean i love the subject but they really dont do it justice. bio seems like its going to be really hard...the lecture notes are really simple, but the reading in the books is REALLY REALLY complicated and difficult. and then, of course...theres chem. oh boy...it makes me so nervous. i really want to drop the lab, but i doubt my advisor and my parents think thats a good idea. i mean, i can always take it later....i feel like right now its way too much. for me to handle, i mean heck, i barely made it last semester... so hopefully, disneyworld for spring break. but i just have this feeling yogi isnt going to be able to go. then what will i do? i cant really come home, all my friends will be at musical practice. *sigh*....heck, i would go to disneyworld alone if i could. but parents wont let me. so anyways, this means that im not coming home until may 10th. which is when school ends for me. thats SUMMER! thats so sad...i dont know how im going to make it. i just hope ben doesnt try to dump me again, just because i live far away. i never understood his logic with that anyways....but at least i can go to prom, because its the 20th. so i shall be home. yay. well i guess ill go now. i should probably try and lose some more weight. im trying really hard to stick to my diet and my workout schedule. i guess i do have till summer to drop 15 pounds. but i definitely need the early start!!!! bye livejournal, thanks for being here. i love typing on you.

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